The End....

Well this is it, the last "Hurrah!" I've decided writing this post has become a chore to me. I absolutely love writing, but this doesn't make me happy. I thought perhaps writing a blog would keep me on track, keep me motivated... and to some extent it did help. However, when I looked back on the weight loss for the past six weeks, I have actually gained one pound... Not exactly what I'd call performance! This needs to be less about you motivating me and more about me taking responsibility for my own actions. 

This needs to be a life long change, and I am not about to write this blog forever, so this is the end my friends... I will update on Facebook now and then and I am sure my Hubby will share my updates with his friends as well. You never know, I may also add to this blog every now and then if the mood strikes and I have some big, or little news to share. :)

A HUGE thanks to those who have encouraged and offered advise. It will not be forgotten... <3 

Oh, and one last weight update... I gained .2 of a lb this week. Not bad all things considered! 

Here's to a happy & healthy future for all of us! xo

Set It Free...

You must have heard of the saying, "Set it free, and if it comes back to you, it was meant to be..." Yeah; well, apparently that same dumb ass saying applies to pounds too! Last week I was SO pleased with myself for losing exactly 4 lbs, and would you like to take a wild guess at what I gained this week? Yup, exactly 4 friggin' pounds! Lately this feels like a dance... Off one week, and back on the next! Not that it's anyone's fault but my own of course... 

Remember that lobster I was trying to decide what to do with last week? Well, I turned it into a lobster dip, and I'm the only one who eats lobster in this house... so I ate it all. Of course with dip comes chips, and I kind of ate all of them too... To be honest, last week was a complete crap show from the very start! I had nachos two nights (one being leftovers), and I ate at Midtown Tavern before the Tattoo Thursday night, and on Friday I had a big ice-cream cone, last night I had cotton candy... and the list goes on... and on... Now I truly can't say I regret the dip & chips because I won't see lobster again for at least six months. However, I could have done without the rest. I especially could have done without the night spent on the couch last night with severe heartburn due to leftover nachos and cotton candy...  Payback really IS a bitch! :(

Like I said earlier, I seem to be hovering up and down in the same spot. It all comes down to lack of energy and will power. I felt like things were turning around last week and when I got weighed I was so excited and revved up again when I had lost 4 lbs. I wish I could have bottled that feeling and been able to take it out when faced with choices I shouldn't have made!!! It bums me out that I feel like crap today because I lost all that ground... makes me want to throw in the towel... but I won't! 

I told Hubby today that we need to start walking this week in the evenings. He has been bouncing too and I don't think is feeling really great about himself either. Unfortunately neither of us is strong willed and I admit to being the one to usually drag him down with me... 

You know what, if reading this is bumming you out as much as it's bumming me out writing it, I apologize! I think I need to change the blog up a bit. It's boring! I will either end it, or find a way to enjoy writing it again... Stay tuned! 

Now That's More Like It!

HA, take that fat!!! I am down exactly 4 lbs this week. Although to be honest, I think part of that may be blood loss... I did donate blood Thursday evening and they do take very close to a pound of blood. I looked up how quickly a person builds their blood levels back up but it seems there are factors involved which makes it hard to know. From what I read, I think the blood builds up quickly but not the iron and therefore maybe the 4 lbs is pure weight loss... Yeah, lets go with that theory! :)

Speaking of donating blood... Have you done so recently, or at all? If you have never donated blood, you need to start! Let's think about it for a minute... If you are in the hospital and in need of blood, you are really not doing so well, or possibly dying, and that could be any of us at anytime. It could be any of our loved ones too. :( It only takes an hour of your time to donate blood and it doesn't cost a cent. It's actually a selfish act because you feel so good afterwards! One little story and then I will get off my soapbox...  Several years ago, on a whim, I popped into the blood donor clinic to donate blood. I hadn't donated in a long time because of health reasons and I wanted to start donating again. When I walked up to the desk and they saw my blood type on my card (the second rarest type) they asked if I had been called in. They told me there was a gentleman in the hospital in Halifax in critical need of blood and so they had put out calls to everyone with my blood type. They whisked me through the process and off went my blood... It was a very real and eye opening experience and really made me realize how important it is to give!!! I urge you all to at least look into this if you haven't donated before. If you have donated, but haven't done it in awhile, please sign up and go again. Oh, and if you're on medications you think will keep you from donating, chances are they won't so just call and ask. 

So back to the topic of weight loss... :) I realize last weeks blog was rather depressing and down, and I apologize. I really was feeling as though it was slipping away from me. This week; however, I am feeling strong again and back on track. Most importantly, I am excited too! I just want to move my butt more and get this fat gone already!!! Unfortunately I had several commitments after work this week and could not go walking; but the one day we did get out, we walked further than we ever did before, and we were very proud of ourselves too! Plus, I have crappy sneakers with no support so just think what I could do with good footwear... I'd just be a blur of motion! ;)

Oh yes, blur of motion; that reminds me of something... I discovered while walking with my Hubby the other night that moving fast is really a necessity to staying alive, and here's why... So we're crossing the road in front of our house and we see there's a car coming, but it's ok, if we move quickly we have time. So we set out in a brisk walk to beat the car, which by the way is in the left lane hugging the concrete meridian because he is turning. So Hubby gets to the meridian first and he steps up out of harms way... and stops dead in his tracks. What he apparently fails to realize, is the meridian is very narrow and I am still behind him, and still on the friggin' road, with a car still heading straight for me... OMG!!! Now I am writing this today so I am obviously ok, but I just barely got my arse out of the way in time. I was teasing him afterwards and saying I didn't trust him so I was walking on the inside of the sidewalk away from traffic so he couldn't push me in front of a car... LOL Lesson learned, never walk behind Hubby when illegally crossing the street! ;) 

So on to another topic altogether... Today I have a big decision to make which will play a big role in next weeks weight loss numbers... I have a couple of lobsters coming my way today and I really really REALLY want to make lobster dip with them. If I do that, I will be eating lobster dip and chips three evenings this week and that's a lot of calories! Or, I could just eat the lobster today and not make the dip, but that breaks my heart... I won't get lobster again until December; that is 6 long months from now... :( UGH! What to do, what to do.... Next weeks weight loss will tell the tale, stay tuned.... :)

Losing That Loving Feeling...

PHEW! I dodged another bullet... Despite not getting any exercise due to a bad leg and then going away the weekend on a road trip, I still lost weight... not much mind you (.2 lbs) but it's still heading in the right direction! :D

The problem is, I'm starting to get bored with this now... and that's not a little problem, it's a BIG problem! I notice I'm starting to make up excuses again to snack. I'm not holding myself back like I was before... Now I haven't fully gone off the wagon, but I'm slacking compared to the first few months. I know it sounds weird because it's up to me what I do... but I'm worried! I know all too well how easy it is to quit and go back to eating whatever/whenever! 

I need to find a way to motivate me further. The bet with Hubby has kind of gone by the wayside (as the saying goes) because we can't afford to be dishing out $40 bucks a month on a bet. Not that I ever once did what I was meant to do with the money and spend it on something fun like bingo. I spent it on stuff that was needed for our trip south and personal items. I was too responsible with it... sucked the fun right out of it I did! 

I really don't want to gain back any weight, I worked too damn hard to get where I am! I'll have to figure this out... I'd say exercise is the key but it seems every night there is something going on. Tomorrow night Hubby has plans. Wednesday night I have an eye appt. Thursday night I am donating blood... maybe Friday night we could go for a walk at this point. The only other time a day I have free is at lunch time and by the time I get my lunch into me there's usually less than half an hour left. 

I'll have to figure this out... I really don't want to be fat anymore! :(

Stay tuned....

Slightly Delayed...

Sorry Folks! Due to a weekend away and not being able to be weighed this morning, I am postponing my blog until tomorrow (Monday) evening.

Remember how I said I was going to try to be down 5 lbs? Yeah, well I am apparently a bigger dreamer than I thought I was because I had a bad leg last week and a trip away... not exactly great ways to lose weight! We shell see what the scale says but my guess is, this isn't going to be good! :(

Stay tuned...

The Joy Of Vacation...

Other than fruit wrapped in chocolate, I haven't had a piece of it in a week. Vegetables, well if you count salsa and french fries... yeah, I've had some! I let myself run wild on vacation, loved every minute of it and gained 3 lbs in the process. I'm actually quite surprised it wasn't a whole lot more... I'm talking two nights of having nachos and pop after midnight... Of course my digestive system is in full on rebellion but my fat hoarding body is loving every second of it! 

Now to get this back off of me, in one week! No sweat (said with a cocky grin)! I figure I had my fun and will now work my butt off and re-introduce lots of water and goodness into my system. I actually think it's not bad to do it now and then because it fools the body and it's like a reboot... I lost close to 100 lbs many years ago and when I hit a plateau, this is how I got past it. Mind you I didn't hit a plateau yet this time around but it should still be no problem to kick it back into gear. :) 

The stairs that took me down,
in more ways than one....

Speaking of kicking it into gear... I apparently did it quite wrong yesterday and now I can't put weight on my right leg. You see, I had a run-in with a set of steps at Victoria Park... Now these weren't ordinary steps, they were extremely steep and had no backs on them. It doesn't help that after a bad fall I am already nervous of steps, AND I don't like heights either. However, at this point it was the only way I was going to see the waterfalls. So Hubby went down the steps first and there I was alone at the top... and I couldn't do it! I couldn't take that first step. I would walk up to the steps and then back away, I paced back and forth in front of them, I even cried because the only way I could get to see the waterfalls, was down those damn stairs! I literally looked like a puppy who didn't want to go outside to pee in the rain... I honestly don't know how I did it, because I thought I was going to fall and die, but something made me take that first step or two, and despite desperately wanting to turn back, I couldn't... I was too afraid to turn around! So, despite carrying a heavy tripod in one hand and having a backpack of camera gear on me, I headed down. On every step I put my right foot down on the back edge of the next step down to brace myself and keep my body leaning back. Unfortunately I didn't take into consideration what putting all of this weight on my right leg would do to it... My quads are screaming mad at me! I can't even walk today because putting weight on that leg is a no-no! And to prove that point, if I put too much weight on it my leg just plain ole' gives out on me. The only silver lining in all of this.. the falls were absolutely gorgeous!!! Oh, and apparently I have the power to overcome my fears... who knew! 

Now here is where I'm confused... I have noticed my calf muscles getting all bulgy and sexy (yes, I said sexy) so why aren't my quads getting a work out too. They have also been holding my body weight all this time too and working with my calf muscles to get me around. Why did going down those steps do so much damage??? I should have become a doctor to learn how the body works... I'm pretty sure mine is screwy... 

So now I'm hoping my leg will heal quickly to help me get off the weight I gained this past week... at least that's the plan! Actually I want 5 lbs gone this week! Stay tuned to see how it goes... 

Some of my photos of the falls: 

Hmmmm, What To Do, What To Do....

Yeah, so this week I'm on vacation (YAY!). Part of enjoying my vacation is relaxing, part of my relaxing is snacking... Actually it's a little too late to be wondering what to do considering I stopped at Bulk Barn on the way home from work Friday and bought several different kinds of candy. Just a little in each bag... but there are 6 bags... and I did eat some yesterday. To make matters even worser (I did not misspell that word, it's my own twist and I love it...), I also stopped and bought KFC on the way home Friday night; which I ate Friday night, yesterday for lunch, yesterday for supper, and for breakfast this morning. Other than that, it was a great week! :D

Considering how much I did snack before the weigh in this morning, I did do pretty well I think. I lost .8 of a lb. Plus, I gained muscle in my calves. I went to shave my legs and thought I was disfigured! I'm definitely not used to seeing bulges of the muscle kind... (If you snickered at that, don't blame me!) ;)

So Hubby and I started walking this week. Well, actually we walked Saturday night but technically we did start this week... Plus I walked a bit more to and from work than usual. That's why I think I still lost this week. Fortunately for my better half, he told me not to get him any candy and he only had two meals of the KFC and not four like I did; and he lost 2.4 lbs this week. I'm very proud of him, but at the same time I want to hold him down and force feed him a donut! LOL  

The last time Hubby and I tried to lose weight we tried walking around Lake Pisiquid on a few different occasions, and it damn near killed me! By the time I got back to the car I could barely walk. Pain in my back, hips, and legs just about did me in. This time however, I made that walk with no problem at all. Nothing hurt when I got back to the car. It's amazing how much of a change losing 30 lbs can make! I was worried and dreading the walk because I figured I'd be hurting at the end... HA, that lake was my bitch! LOL 

Ok, one last thing...  This popped up in my Facebook memories today and I thought I'd share:

Seven years ago today Hubby and I bought our wedding bands for our most important day together. I know I was super excited about the wedding but I don’t remember much else (like actually buying the rings). It sucks to have a bad memory! So, I have a plan… (P.S. I LOVE saying I have a plan! It scares the beejeezus out of Hubby, right Lovey? LOL) The plan is, on our tenth year together as Husband and wife, we will get married again. This time, I will be thin (GULP) & beautiful in my wedding gown. The first time around I didn’t wear a gown because I felt I would look silly as a big bride and it is one of my regrets in life. Not this time, this time my gown will be so puffy and princess’ee, there may be a need to tow a trailer to carry the poof! This time I will also get some of the food and make sure I get to talk to everyone there. It might be a Christmas wedding… not sure yet. With my eyes, blue and silver would be SMOKING HOT! Just sayin… LOL 

Ahhhh, there’s nothing better than a good plan! Now Hubby needs to find a permanent job, I need to lose a lot of weight, and we need to save thousands of dollars… easy peezy! :D""      """      ""     """

I'm still planning on doing this, have most of the details ironed out, and am on way to fitting into that puffy princess'ee gown...  I'll be so hot he won't be able to refuse marrying me again... right Lovey? ;)

Stay tuned... xo